Gotten back home

June 14, 2006 krissything 

Today is June 14 and I’m a little more than a week here in my hometown. I’ve gotten back on the afternoon of my birthday and all I’ve done so far is to eat and sleep. The only highlight of my stay is probably meeting up with Sheryl and Lab last Thursday, play badminton with my brother over the weekend, meeting up with Tang and Sydney last Saturday, and getting medical examinations this afternoon. I’ve gained some weight, and my appetite’s back. Two weeks ago, I could not finish half of my food every single meal. And I only ate one decent meal, and some snack per day which is the reason for my skinny frame. Well, at least the skinniest I’ve been since the depression days of my first year college. I’m still a bit afraid of experiencing the hyperventilation thing in case I get depressed again, although I’ve resolved it so far by the new motto I’d like to live by and that is, “Do not take life too seriously”. It helps. I’ve considered taking the antidepressant medication that was given to me by the doctor, or at least keeping some at hand in case something happens. Sigh. I don’t know what’s happening to me really. I know I have a lot to be happy about but somehow I’m not. Maybe I’m not fit for life. What am I suggesting??? Or maybe all people go through this stage, it’s just that I’ve taken it too seriously… Whatever. If I start to think up of reasons for my state, that would simply prove I’m taking it all too seriously again, which I promised myself I will no longer do.

Anyway, I’m about to take on a freelance writing job for the Living Asia Channel. Stop. I will not talk about my career because I might get depressed. I will talk about nonsense just so I could have something else to think about. I can’t think of anything.