June 24, 2007 krissything
Been ages since I last blogged. Although I vowed never to again, I probably simply just can’t. I’m waiting for my brother to get done with his assignments inside this cubicle of a computer shop with no story to tell, just heartaches to feel. But then I can’t write about them now. Not anymore.. I just realized I don’t have anything to say. I just want to practice my typing skills and maybe thoughts will flow into my head. I’m like this. Nah, I can’t even sort out my life to even write something cohesive and understandable. Or maybe it’s because my eyes are swollen because of crying again. Not that my life is really miserable. I just don’t know what exactly to do with it. Today was like the 2nd Sunday for the Leadership Classes I took at Church, and for once, I was really able to think of Missionary work as something applicable to me. Since I don’t really know precisely what to do with my life anyway. I mean I feel like it’s okay if I get married or not, feel like it’s okay to get rich although it would probably be better to just have enough..(Although we’re told at Church that God wants to bless us abundantly so that we can be a blessing to others). I don’t know. I just seem to be okay with the thought that I will not be lacking or wanting If I just walk with Him. Not like before I guess. Well I really enrolled to know God more, that was the primary motive. Coz I seem to be stagnant in my walk of faith with Him. I know there’s no other way to live and it’s in church I realized everything should be studied, searched for. Soon I know I’ll find my way. It’ll be a lifetime probably though before I know what I was really cut out for. Some people think that when you declare something that has to do with spirituality, it feels awkward. Well I used to feel exactly that until …right this very minute. Hmmm… Hindi pala..Weird.. Not that this really is something spiritual. Well anyway my login ends in about 3mins so I gotta go.
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